“God this is a mistake! You most definitely gave this sweet little girl the wrong mama!”
Have you ever found yourself saying that? (or feeling it?) There have been many times on our journey that I have convinced myself that God made a mistake making me the mom of my oldest child. I felt like I did everything wrong. I felt I could not help her. I felt I could not make her happy or meet her needs. Punishment didn’t work. Yelling didn’t work. Bribing didn’t work. Meds didn’t work. I remember crying just as much as she did each and every day. And that was a lot. And then the tears just stopped. The hurting was so deep inside of me I just turned off my emotions. Got through the day. And breathed a sigh of relief when she fell asleep, knowing that we both had made it though another day.
As she slept I would sit on the edge of her bed, feeling so helpless and like a complete failure as a mom. There she would lay peace filled, beautiful, innocent, and content. Why were the days so tumultuous? What was I doing wrong? I would tell God everyday that He should have given her to someone who could be the mom she needs. As the storm raged on, I grew deeper and deeper into a pit of despair and desperation.
I remember going to a moms group at our church. It had been a terrible morning with all my children, I had three by then and pregnant with my fourth. I sat down at my table completely depleted and basically numb, yet my insides spinning out of control. I just did not know what I was going to do. I remember Robin (a dear friend now), getting up and giving her little “encouraging ditty” to the moms. My mind was just negating everything she said. She then said, “If anyone wants prayer I will be in the back.”
I went running back. I burst into a pile of tears, unable to even speak. I finally told her what was going on: My daughter (age 6) had been diagnosed with anxiety, ocd, depression, add, sensory processing disorder, tippy toe walker, and more… That on a weekly basis we met with a medical dr., psychologist, psychiatrist, eye doctor, physical therapist, and an occupational therapist. I told her that I had worked with at risk kids at the Boys and Girls Club, taught in inner city Minneapolis, and had years of experience with really difficult children, which gave me a huge tool box of things to “do” with “behavior”. NONE of them worked with my daughter. She was melting down and violent daily, multiple times per day. She cried all the time. She was rarely a joyful child. My heart was broken. I told her I felt like a complete failure and that GOD had given her to the wrong mom! (Read our story here)
Robin very calmly, lovingly, free from judgment listened to everything I had to say. She then said, “God knew exactly who to give her to. He knew you were the PERFECT mom for her. He knew that you had the strength to stand with her and fight for her. To perervere until you find the keys that unlock her and release freedom to her. He will give you the tools you need just for her! You were picked as the ONLY one on the planet that can be her mother.” For some reason this really hit me. I think it was that she was so genuine and loving I actually had a spark of hope and believed what she was saying.
We continued to talk and she started sharing about natural health, chiropractors, diets, and things that God created to bring healing. I was totally clueless on it all. But, a door was opened. I began to research and explore. As I did, I found answers, “the keys” that brought healing to my daughter.
Looking back Robin was so right! GOD did know that I was the perfect mama for my sweet girl. He knew I would not give up! He know I would trust Him with her. And each and every day I still rely on him to help me parent her as well as my four other children. I am the PERFECT mama for these five.
They are mine and no one can do what God put me in their lives to do. Yes, I have made mistakes. Don’t get me wrong. Lots of them and some BIG ones along the way. But, I have learned from those mistakes as have my children. We journey together!
BE encouraged today that you are the MAMA for your babies. You are the only one that can do what they need. You are perfect! God gave them to you because He trusts you and knows you will be the one that brings these little ones into their destiny!
Blessings to all you mama! Even if it doesn’t seem like you’re the right mama. Be assured you are. Seek God for wisdom and He will give it to you, guaranteed!!!
Make Kale Chips:
Wash kale and strip from stem
Toss in gapeseed or avocado oil
Put on cookie sheet in single layer and sprinkle with pink salt
Bake at 325 until crunchy- not burneds (about 10-15 mintutes)
2 shallots or a small onion
3 garlic cloves
½ c. organic apple cider vinegar
⅓ c. maple syrup
1 tsp. coarse mustard
1 tsp. regular mustard
1 c. olive oil
Place all ingredients into a blender. Puree until smooth! Enjoy!
Wow, I have been off line for a long time. However, I feel the Lord is asking me to pick it up again. It is going to look a little different but I hope you enjoy it all the same.
Two years ago the Lord told me to “Stop doing Kingdom Kids Nutrition and rest.” So, I did. Now resting with 5 children took a bit of time to master. A short time after that we came into a health journey with our oldest son that landed him in bed for about two years. It was actually in this time that I have learned what he meant by “rest”. It was a season of learning to hone in on His voice and rest in His wisdom and timing to lead to my sons healing. I will share more on his his journey as we go! This season was a season of pulling back from everything, completely focusing on Jesus, and getting my son well at any cost. I spend many hours praying and crying out to God in frusteration, fear, despertion to heal my son or send me the wisdom to know what to do to get him free. And the Lord poured out. It was not over night, it was a long yet fruitful journey. It was like a puzzle, in which I was given one piece at a time which brought full restoration to my son, in which I am so greatful! Now is the time …
The shift is here…
The websits is going to get a little bit of a face lift, the focus will be on living a fruitul lifetsyle that brings joy, life, and health! The key word here is lifestyle!! We as a family have learned the importance of fueling our bodies well with not only food, but also balancing rest/being on the go, joy in being purposful to have familytime together, and for me as a mama pouring into friendship that fill me and sharpen me as me, and me as mom! So, this will be the focus of my website. I am going to be writing on everyday parenting (sharing real life in the moment and from the past parenting snapshots), every day eating (of course delicious healthy family approved recipes- with little to no commentary- drives me nuts when I go to a recipe and have to scroll 20 pages to get the recipe, I just want the recipe!) and the every day mom (thriving vs. surving as a mama) and thriving in the public school (our journey in the public school, the world of sports, and beyond- teaching our kids to carry the light)! There may be other things that pop up but that is where I feel to begin!
I am excited to be back writing and sharing. Hope it brings hope, health, joy and life to you and your family!
Please let me know what you want to hear about! Comment below if there are topics you would like me to address, health questions/diet/parenting/thriving vs. surviving motherhood/behavior/dealing with kids friends….I will happily share what I have with you!
Here are the coffee creations I have promised you!
Camel Machiatto: Fill coffee cup about 1/2 with ogranic heavy cream and a squirt of Sweet Leaf Drops Carmel. Use frother and froth until bubblyPlace cup under Keurig and run 1 pod.
The coffee will drip to bottom and raise up the cream to the top! If no Keurig then just pour coffee slowly into the middle of the cup!
Chocolate Peppermint Latte: Michelle’s Deliciousness
Pour about a cups worth of coffee and add desired about of cream into a bullet or blender container. Add a scoop of Bone Broth Vanilla protein powder (get it here . ). Add NutriDyn chocolate peppermint greens. Add MTC oil about 1 T. and puree until well blended- just a minute or so
Fill coffee cup about 1/4 full with organic heavy cream. Begin to whip with frother (Get it here ) continue to whip as you pour in brewed coffee til cup if full.
Bullet Coffee (Kelli’s fav)
1 T. MTC Oil, 1T. Organic Coconut Oil, 1 scoop Axe Collegen powder (get it here . ), 1 cup brewed coffee. Put all ingredients into blender or bullet and blend for a min or so.
Bullet Coffee (origional)
1T. grassfed butter, 1T. coconut oil, 1 scoop Axe Collegen powder, 1 cup brewed coffee, Put all ingredietns into a blender or bullet and blend for a min or so
*Pour any of the above over ice for an iced coffee
*Sub coconut milk for heavy cream to make them all dairy free
*Add Whip: Whip heavy cream in bullet or mixer til firm points form, add stevia drops or sweet luvs to add sweetness if desired. Top you coffee in the goodness!
Can it be true cookies can heal your body? Sure is! This recipe is adapted from Against All Grains Chocolate Chip Cookies (https://againstallgrain.com/2012/08/29/real-deal-chocolate-chip-cookies/) . A few little changes make it sweetened naturally and then all the great protein and good fats they contain will nourish your body with every bite! Enjoy!
Cookies That Heal: Cellular Healing Chocolate Chip Cookies
Recipe type: Adapted from Against All Grains: Chocolate Chip Paleo Cookies (see that recipe here https://againstallgrain.com/2012/08/29/real-deal-chocolate-chip-cookies/)
Serves: 16 cookies
You will find vegan/dairy free options for these cookies as well below!
Put wet ingredients into food processor:
1 egg (for egg free use 3T. water mixed with 1 T. ground flax)
¼ c. Sweet Luvs (get it here https://www.amazon.com/Sweet-LUV-All-Natural-Sugar-Alternative/dp/B074PDDLR6)
2 t. Vanilla
¼ c. Kerry Gold or grassfed butter (for dairy free use coconut oil or ghee)
Whirl in food processor until creamy
Mix the following dry ingredients together in a bowl and then dump into food processor and process until well combined.
1.5 c. Almond Flour
½ t. Baking Soda (for egg free add 1 tsp)
½ t. Himalayan Sea Salt
2 T. Coconut Flour
Stir in Lily's (get it here https://www.vitacost.com) chocolate chips about ½ cup or amount desired
Roll into balls and place on parchment lined cookie sheet. Wet fingers with water and press down cookie balls into shape desired (they will not spread), bake at 350 degrees for 10 minutes or until they are golden brown on the edges.
One complication of a healthy or special diet is when mama has to be or desires to be gone for a meal. This coming week I am traveling with my new job to a conference in California for four days. To sure my little man eats as he should when I am gone I have set up a few things to help my hubby successfully prepare delicious healthy meals for all of them. Today I am just going to share one tip: multiply and freeze!
Since I knew this trip was coming up I have been double or even tripling the recipes and freezing them. If you have the mess it takes just a moment more to multiply what you are already doing. For one of the days I am gone I have left doughnuts for breakfast, this will be the Sunday morning treat. These doughnuts are refined sugar free, egg free, gluten free or grain free and delicious (the egg free one will be eaten by my one little one with an egg allergy and the rest of the crew. Matthew will eat the grain free pack that I have also left ‘see grain free doughnut recipe here’ ).
If your hubby is newer to this you can also make the whole mix and freeze it. Then all he has to do is defrost, cut the tip off the bag, and bake the doughnuts. (See doughnut recipe here)
As I give my web page a new look in the upcoming weeks I am going to add a section called Helping Hubby! This section will have helpful tips to get hubbies on board with a healthy lifestyle as well as empower them in the kitchen!
I have been offline for a while but I am back! And back full on in a health journey with our son. The journey seems a bit familiar to our past that there are no medical answers and God needs to show us HIS journey to the healing manifest in our sons body. This has caused us to enter into a healing diet.
OUR DIET: We are doing a diet based on prayer and kinesiology. Therefore, we are muscle testing ,with Dr. Matousek to find out foods his body is “desiring” and will promote healing and foods that his body “does not” want which will clog up the healing process. I then pray for specifics (so when told no sugar I asked God which were ok and which we should avoid at the moment- see list below). So, specifically at the moment his body wants ZERO sugar- LOL! That is kind of a dah, to all of us in the foodie world. His body is also desiring good fats: coconut oil, quality meats, quality grass fed dairy, nuts, grape seed oil, olive oil, etc… therefore, overall we are doing a grain free, high fat, zero refined sugar (including honey and maple syrup)- we are not eliminating carrots, an occasional banana in a protein smoothie, etc… I guess you can all it a kind of palio, kind of cellular healing, kind of keto!
So, today I am going to share our first successful and delicious meal. We create quesadillas that were AMAZING! The other night we made Chili Lime Flat Iron Steak Fajita Salads, they were pretty good (will post recipe later), but these quesadillas were the BOMB!!!!
This is what we did…
We took the leftover steak (which was flat iron steak marinated in grapeseed oil, chili powder, cumin, and lots of lime. Then grilled for 5 minutes on each side- DO NOT OVER COOK or they become like leather)
We gathered from the fridge the leftover peppers and onions, pepperjack cheese, and almond flour tortillas (see picture above).
I oiled my skillet with grape seed oil.
Then I laid a tortilla down
I topped the tortilla with meat, onion/peppers, cheese, and another tortilla. We topped it with guac, salsa, and sour cream!
“DAIRY FREE OPTION: Use a little bit of Diaya Cheese ( a little goes a LONG way), use Tofutti Sour Cream” . (Since I have a little guy with Dairy and Egg allergy I will always add a DF/EF adaptions as needed.
I hope you enjoy this delicious meal finds your family happy and healthy! Please comment and let me know how you are and what you are up to!
Sorry for my lack of posting over the last months, lots of stuff happening in the life of this girlie, hopefully over Christmas break I will be able to bring you all up to speed. But in the mean time, here are some quick like to my favorite cookie recipes!!! Enjoy!
Looking for some Gluten Free, “healthier” cookie options? Well, I have pulled a few of my old posts to make it quick and simple for you to find these recipes. AS we are all swamped with final preparations. Don’t feel bad if you haven’t started your baking yet, we haven’t either! We will be starting tomorrow!